SHE ONLY CHOSE KIND

For nearly a year I couldn't drive by a McDonalds without bursting into tears.

Even now, 

two years later,

I still expect to see her sitting there

reading the Chinese Times,

with her coffee, 

apple pie, 

and a bag with chocolate chip cookies

that she would save to bring home for Daniel and Bryce.

It was two years ago today when we said goodbye.

Not a day goes by when I don't miss you (and Dad).

I know I am selfish. 

I had you for 81 years.

I wanted more.

Some people don't even get half of those years with their parent.

I know how lucky I was.

But it doesn't make me miss you any less.

I miss that smile.

Always genuine.

I miss that laugh.

You found humor in so many things.

I wish I could do that too.

I'm trying.

But it's not as easy for me.

So I'll keep trying.

I miss your patience with Daniel.
You understood him.
He always knew you were on his side.
I wish he knew I was too.
I'm trying.

I am grateful for all the adventures we took together.
Long and short distances.
You were never one to sit still.
Always wanting to explore new places.
I can't seem to sit still either.
I get that from you.

I am grateful that the boys got to know you.
They remember your words of wisdom.
The smells of your cooking.
Memories we've shared.
They miss you too.

You believed the most important thing was to make them happy.
And you did.

You showed courage, grace, and strength
even in times when I felt fear and hopelessness.
This is one of Bryce's favorite picture of you.
I hope he inherits your courage, grace, and strength.

In a world where you can be anything, you always chose KIND.

I don't think there was ever a time when you weren't kind.

You always thought of others.

Even when you didn't have much, you would give.

And you forgave.

You didn't believe in holding on to anger and grudges.

"What good is that?" you would say.

Forgiveness was part of your framework.

I am still working on that one.

You have left a legacy with high standards.

You would be proud to know that

they all have inherited your kindness and generosity...

along with your sweet tooth.

We miss you everyday.